(Yo, I found something I wrote in 2015 but never publish for some reason. Still relevant, I think.)
For some reason, I came upon an interesting thought while
standing inside a crowded bus at midnight, listening to Amy Adams sing “That's
How You Know” from the Disney movie, Enchanted. I'm really not sure how I
arrived at this, but I'm just gonna give it a go.
Why am I being too hard on myself?
Why is it that ever since I graduated from college I had
this nagging feeling telling me to move my ass and start being successful? I've
always been ambitious; basically that's the only thing fueling my desire to be
successful (there isn't much outside pressure, really), but lately it's been
really browbeating, like the pressure's been amped to ten times as ever. Grabe.
Everyday it's like there's a post it at the back of my brain reminding me to
work hard, earn big, get to your dreams now.
The operative word here is now.
As young adults, we're idealistic, especially our
generation. We want to have most things, go most places, do most hobbies and
still have the most leisure time. We browse online catalogs and review websites
planning what to do next, even if our schedules are booked to the minute. And
when we find that we don't have enough time or money for basically everything,
it frustrates us (I read somewhere that young adults are more frustrated with
this than any other age group; I'll look the article up so you can read if
you're interested). Our frustration is then amplified by our idealism, which is
usually directed to the self. You may say that this frustration to achieve
during young adulthood is normal.
Why then, the emphasis on having everything now?
Actually, I have yet to read about this. For now, let's
stick to IMHO's.
